The late 2000s and early 2010s media saw an increase
in appearances of sociopathic characters.
From Steven Moffat’s reimagining of Sherlock Holmes in Sherlock
to Hannibal and Dexter, the internet grew in fervor around sociopathic
characters and generally misrepresenting anti-social personality disorder to such
a degree that they must be unempathetic serial killers (or detectives). I Am Not A Serial Killer is Dan Wells’
debut novel which sets itself up as a thriller about John Wayne Cleaver, a
teenager diagnosed with anti-social personality disorder, living with his
mother and aunt, and tracking down a serial killer who has been stalking male
victims and stealing body parts. Wells
using sociopathy as the defining characteristic for John Cleaver makes for an
interesting protagonist and attempts to avoid going into a lot of the issues
with portraying a protagonist, using I Am Not A Serial Killer to examine
what could be happen when someone breaks down.
There are points in the book where John is about to snap and let Mr.
Monster out, the part of him that he thinks he is going to go and kill somebody. John’s narration is fascinating but there
does seem to be an issue with Wells writing him as going to be a serial killer
and the climax of the book involves him killing a sentient being and nearly
getting off from it. There’s also a
lengthy scene of him pushing away his friend due to essentially being a fake
friend and unable to make any real connection to other people.
More importantly I Am Not A Serial Killer is a
book which after 1/3 of being a normal thriller, though one aimed at young
adults, there is a twist. While this twist
is executed well, it is one that some people will genuinely dislike due to it
shifting the genre from a realistic thriller to a paranormal game of cat and
mouse. I personally like where the story
went, but I completely understand the criticism that it doesn’t give the reader
fully what they were expecting when they picked up the book. It was also a twist I was aware was coming,
and the villain that it reveals is perhaps the strongest character in the book
outside of John Cleaver. The villain has
this persona and is a mirror to John in a lot of ways, and there is most
definitely a reading of I Am Not A Serial Killer where the paranormal
elements are just in the mind of John Cleaver and not actually happening. The villain may just be a normal serial
killer and the paranormal are a point to make it clear that it’s something John
is not, but future books in the series, and yes this is a series, along with
the ending make it clear that the villain is literally a demon. There are literal paranormal creatures in
this universe and the humanity put in the villain while not accidental was not
meant to be common. It is something which
almost cheapens points of the book.
Overall, I Am Not A Serial Killer may be a
great debut from Wells but there is definitely some baggage from the pop
culture zeitgeist of the time as well as adding in a twist that is not going to
be for everybody. John Cleaver is not a
serial killer and while he lets out a monster at the end it seems that he may
be becoming a serial killer which is perhaps the problem of what this book was trying
to do. A brilliant thriller is marred by
becoming a series and being partially beholden to paranormal tropes. 7/10.